Seasons Of Life

The Climb

2009-04-08T22:45:00.007+08:00

I can almost see it

That dream I'm dreaming but

There's a voice inside my head sayin,

You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking but I

Got to keep trying

Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down but

No I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm going to remember most yeah

Just got to keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain

I'm always going to want to make it move

Always going to be an uphill battle,

Sometimes you going to have to lose,

Ain't about how fast I get there,

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving

Keep climbing

Keep the faith baby

It's all about

The climb

Keep the faith

Keep your faith

Holidays Part 1 (Phuket)

2008-12-28T15:26:00.017+08:00

I owe you guys and the blog an update. So, here it is. I'll tell you about my 2 months holiday which is about to end..To start off with my trip to Phuket=)

Well, it was fun and very eye-opening with the "lady-man" (man who becomes women..this is what they are called in Phuket), Loi Kratong festival (water festival), tan beach boys, motorcycle taxis, the weird food, thai massage, elephant ride, the bargaining during shopping, pole dancing and agogo clubs along the streets. Haha...yes yes a lot of things happened during that trip. The first thing we (my parents and I) did when we reached was the elephant ride. I got the huge mummy elephant that was so tall. I was so scared when I sat on it till my hands sweat and the Thai guy who sat on the elephant's head was so mean, he uses a rod with a sharp hook to pierce the elephant's ear to make it obey. I didn't get my elephant's name though, sadly but I did get pictures. :P

The next day we went looking for the right massage parlour to go to. I said 'right massage parlour' because the massage ladies are kinda scary, pulling any guys who walk past, into their shop and I really wonder what happens to the poor guys once they're inside. Finally we found an inexpensive and well, I can say genuine massage shop. Haha...it was good, really good though I couldn't stop giggling the whole time. It's a waste if you go to someplace and do not try their specialities.

After 2 days of rain, there was finally sunshine. We headed to the beach to get some sun tan. The beach there was really nice, soft sand, sunny, friendly beach boys and a spot to cuci mata. Hehe...yes, further down was the gay beach. Not the 'happy' beach but a beach where you can see guys hugging each other. I didn't go for the water sports this time round as I intended to just enjoy the beautiful horizon and allow the breeze to lullaby me to sleep. My oh my...how the mat sallehs rub oil all over their bodies to get themselves burnt....positioning their bodies in odd manners just to get the sun. How lucky we are that we can have the sun everyday!!

During the night however, we walked the streets and managed to catch a "lady-man" fashion show. Oh gosh, you can't even tell if they are a man or a lady. Yeah, they're that pretty. Oh, talking bout "lady-man", I got whacked on the arm by 1 of them and she asked if I wanna have a pic with her. You see, I was taking pictures and accidentally caught 'her' in it and 'she' earns her salary by taking pictures with people. But oh well, I said no and ran for my life...haha! While strolling the streets, I saw street dance and arrays of weird food being sold...it was because the next day was the water festivel-Lai Krathong, a festival where beautiful flower floats lighted with candles are released into the sea...symbolic of sending away bad omen. Something like that...

That's my experince in Phuket...many 1st....frightening but eye-opening.
In Phuket, one must always remember...."We are in the world but not of the world...."
Haha!! Here are some pictures...

Elephant ride....interesting

"Lady-man" who whacked me...really painful her force was of a man...

"Lady-man" fashion show...

Ouchie....Blister..

2008-11-18T22:07:00.011+08:00

Blisters....ouch, they hurt! After such a long long time, I went back to playing tennis. The game was supposed to be an hour but by the last 10 minutes, I could hardly play. Wanna know why? There's friction between my hand and the handle of the racquet. A whole chunk of skin came off....well, not exactly but half of it was hanging. Yes, ouch! The rubber grip kinda got old so it became rough.

Now I feel so handicap...doing everything with only my left hand. Thank God it's holidays! =P

Oh and guys, make sure you check the overgrip of your tennis racquet before you go back
to the court if you haven't been playing for some time. =) Just so you don't hurt yourself like I did...

I had my racquet's overgrip changed and re-stringed it as well...now, it is as good as new and I can't wait to use it next week :-> See you coach Quhar !

Cheers!

Holidays are here!

2008-11-06T21:01:00.004+08:00

I am glad to announce that the last day of exam is officially over and I am officially FREE!! Haha...=P

Guess what?! A rainbow greeted me when I reached school this morning...what a wonderful way to end the exam day. It's like a promise that everything will be alright and exams will be a distant word for now. Hehehe...I'm just so overly happy and excited holidays are finally here though I'm still cracking my head thinking of what to do to fill my time and also getting use to not studying after my nap and dinner.

Before this euphoria, I suffered much. It all started with zits sprouting like beans when exam started. I couldn't eat much, broken sleep, mental stress, needless to say I sacrificed tv, movies, outings, galavanting, jogging, swimming, and reading. The worst was last night, I could not sleep, tossing the whole time, changed bed, tried everything, prayed and finally ended up on the couch. It was the wonderful massage that mom did...her magical hands soothe my mind and body with Origins "peace of mind" oil that sets the mood for sleep...at last zzzz but it was already 4am. I only had 2.5 hours sleep but thank God, I managed to sit through my last paper, Chemistry 1, with still a sober and sound mind!

Again, I'll say I am really happy holidays are here. Excited that I'm leaving for Phuket tomorrow morning. Can hardly wait...at least I'll be going somewhere far from the busy, packed city life for a few days. Haha......enjoy the sea breeze and just have some time to myself after a long long time. Well, before all the excitement starts, I've gotta pack and I guess I've gotta do it soon. Hehe....dun like packing. Who does? Hahaha....

Just so you know, I won't be blogging for a few days...won't be here and I won't have a laptop with me. So, anyways, happy holidays ya'll!!

Reminiscing...my loving God, my Abba Father

2008-10-26T15:39:00.003+08:00

This is a must watch video. I came across this video and it is just so so true. Well, during all my ups and downs God has truly been there for me and has never once left me. He just somehow gives me peace and the confidence that no matter how bad things works out, He'll still be there.=)

There's actually a poem on footprints in the sand and it goes like this...

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Scenes from his life flashed across the sky and he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life had flashed before him,he recalled that at the lowest and saddest times of his lifethere was only one set of footprints. Dismayed, he asked, "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. I don't understand why, when I needed you most, you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child. I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering when you saw only one set of footprints... That was when I carried you."

Exam Strezzzzz

2008-10-23T18:39:00.004+08:00

Hihi!

Sorry I haven't been writing for a long time. First, exam was round the corner and I was busy preparing for it and now, it's here. Just how fast time passes huh? It flies by...hehe. So make sure you make take advantage of it. Anyway, just decided to drop a post before I go back to being a book worm since my head feels a little cramped because of dear dear Sejarah. :P

P.S: I can's wait until exams are over. Gotta celebrate, definitely! Hahaha...

Toodles...

Lunch-Do

2008-09-23T22:24:00.007+08:00

The lunch outing that we've been planning for weeks finally materialised. We(my classmates and me) went to Atria this afternoon to grab a quick lunch. Guess what?! We decided to be naughty and brought our mobiles to school. Haha....but I guess I was the naughtiest 'coz I brought my camera along, thanks to a dear friend who reminded me to.=)

So, we went and ate and took pictures. It was fun and at least my friends could witness with their own eyes that I do have a big appetite. Don't underestimate my petite size!! Haha...but anyway, the highlight of the day was still my dear dear friend, Y3 the laughing hyena as usual laughed like a mad person about what? We do not know...

Here are some of the pictures we took....

* the laughing hyena who always bring us laughter (Yike Yuan)*

*the outing gang...(from left seated: Hui Nee, Kah Yee, Me, Li Sze;

from left standing: Yike Yuan and Mei Teng)*

*ahem! the privilege one...the thorn among the roses (Jia Xian)*

*Do we look alike?? Hmm....*

Well, I'm thankful God put into my life such wonderful friends. I learnt how to enjoy friendship better this year. But I doubt we can have more of such outings in the near future especially next year with SPM coming up. Hey guys! Thanks for a fun lunch-do today. Let's do it again....soon?

Rainbow Of My Heart

2008-09-14T13:19:00.010+08:00

There was once a season when my heart became cold and uncaring. I just lost the enthusiasm to care and also to show love to those around me. Well, I guess everyone has at least once felt that they should do something but just can't bring themselves to do it, right? I don't know about everyone but well, I do feel like this sometimes and I definitely was feeling that at that very moment in time. I knew very well in mind that I should not go on like this but instead go back to my normal caring self but some how, I just couldn't. But I thank God that finally that spell was broken. =P

Anyway, this is the poem on how I felt during that time. =)

RAINBOW OF MY HEART

I was looking….
Searching for that rainbow
Looking in the sky…
For that rainbow
That once upon a time,
It Laced the garden of my little heart….

That precious rainbow;
That emits colorful rays,
Rays of hope for me and rays of light for those around me,
It brought little gestures of care,
Exuded warmth and love of a special kind,
A touch here and there,
Gentle words, angels’ whispers
That the rainbow shares….

I guess I will never find that rainbow
Seemingly it has diminished; or
Hardened itself against my little heart
I can’t feel its warmth,
Just plain coldness, brittle as crumbs
Left me wondering…
Rainbow of my heart…why did you leave me…?

I long for that rainbow once again
To come floating gently back
Tenderly embracing my little heart
Turned lonely, cold and hard
To once again feel the warmth
Pounding and pumping with love overflowing
To be me and me once moreRainbow of my heart,

I am eagerly yearning...

Phobia

2008-09-10T22:06:00.005+08:00

Everyone has at least one phobia right? Well, some has ablutophobia(fear of washing or bathing), achuoplhobia(fear of darkness), aeroacrophobia(fear of open high places), agliophobia(fear of pain), altophobia(fear of heights), brontophobia(fear of thunder and lightning), cibophobia(fear of food) and also my fear version of going to Nasional Service(NS)....Natiphobia. How's this name? Anybody has a better version?

As I reflect on this fear of mine, it dawned upon me that it is unnecessary to fear things which are beyond my control. A good friend of mine thought so too. I've been looking to men and also all over the place for means and ways just to avoid going to NS though I'll only know if I'm going next year. On deeper thought, the reasons I have for not going are so lame. It could be my mindset and attitude too. I need to know assuringly that everything will turn out just fine.

Everyone keeps telling me that I should let God's will be done for my future as He knows best but the sound of it just makes your heart stop beating for a small fraction in time, doesn't it? Yea, trust the Lord...I know but being human, I tend to worry a little bit. Hehe...

But oh well, I try my best to surrender to God because He works for the good of those who love Him, right? And I do love Him. =)

Goodnight and God bless!

Breaking Free

2008-09-06T10:45:00.002+08:00

Have you ever felt as if you're overflowing with love for something or someone but could not pin-point what it was? Well, as for me, there were many times when I just felt as if my heart was bursting with love. Bursting with love for someone....but who, i always thought to myself. I quickly went through a mental list of the people I know. However, none came to mind each time...so, I came to a conclusion that I'm bursting with love for a stranger, my future partner whom I have yet to know. But isn't it amazing that if you guard your heart which is full of feelings carefully, you can actually love hard and real when the time comes for you to fall head over heels in love with a special someone? That's exactly how I feel...I just hope and pray that my future mate, whoever it may be will know how to appreciate this priceless gift I have for him. =)